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Fuckin' Thoughts

I can't help thinking these thoughts.... Suicidel thoughts. I just can't. There. This is my post.

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HI YOU GUYS!!!!!

OK somethings you need to know what has been happening with me so far.... I ran away a couple a weeks ago... And honestly, it was the best damn thing I have EVER EVER DONE!!!!!!! It was coolio! And I matured a little bit too.... In one way... NOT MENTALY!!!!! Shit I am still crazy! HELL YES MOTHER FUCKA! lmao! I love you guys so much! BUT I LOVE SHAWN MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ASHLEY (for real)

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Hey! Look! It's an update *gasp* God damnit I miss the computer! Stupid grades! I also miss everyone I don't get to see everyday at school. I MISS YOU! I should be back by summer, till then my boyfriend will update my site for me. TO LONG, grrrr....

Well, let me breif what's been going on in the wonderful world of Ashely! (even though it's a dark and cold place...depressing, huh?) As Shawn informed you, my grandpa from Nebraska died. That sucked. And still does. It seems like everyday I have to fake a smile or laugh just to keep from crying in front of people. I hate feeling depressed, and I don't know how to get rid of my pain. I used to cut but I stopped cause Shawn asked me too. If mom ever found out this little fact, she'd send me right back to Oaklawn. And I don't want to go back there.

Alas, I have to go! Good-bye and good luck!

Ashely